Bending Over Backwards

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 23:02:13 GMT

I've been computerless for a while.

~~...and I'm turning into a hermit. Just great.~~

Ouch.

Sat, 24 May 2008 16:30:09 GMT

I didn't damage my back by driving last weekend. I damaged it this morning by sneezing. Great.

...the mere thought of getting out of my chair is making me wince. I think it might be a pinched nerve.

Today's quote: "I never stopped to think of you/I'm always wrapped up in/Things I cannot win" - 'Cold' by Crossfade

[ooc: Unfortunately, sneezing CAN aggravate a pinched nerve in the spine. It makes bending, getting up from seats and moving in sleep really uncomfortable. Even walking can be a problem.]

Sat, 17 May 2008 17:30:07 GMT

Something's wrong with the disk drive on the laptop. I have import all my music before it can play normally and gods (if there are any) forbid that I should try to burn a mix CD. The whole laptop is lagging.

...I think I'm going to drive this weekend. I'm not sure where I'm going but I feel like getting out of Osaka for a bit. My back will probably kill me after, but it's worth a change of scenery. Would anyone like to come along? Because much as I like driving, I also like company. The boss already said I could take the weekend off. Damn but half the weekend is practically gone, isn't it?

I plan to head off in four hours. So if anyone wants to come along...

...I need to buy a few lightbulbs. The fuses in the room are starting to blow.

Quote of the day: "He who aims to keep abreast is forever second best." - Piet Hein, Runaway Runes [Short Grooks I]

Sun, 11 May 2008 03:56:27 GMT

I feel like I dropped off the face of the planet for a while. But it did me some good...I think.

I applied to stay at the dorms and I was approved. But it seems like I barely spend time there. I spend most of the day at Kawamura's, I work evenings at the store and sleep at the dorms. It's routine but at the same time, it's not boring.

...I keep thinking about what I want to do with my life. And I keep realizing that I have no idea. Too much thought at this hour? I think so. See, there I go, thinking again~

But there I have it. Right now, I'm here and that's about it. I suppose that'll have to do until I find something to make life more interesting...not that spending time with people is boring. It's just not enough. ^_^;

I'm sorting my things, keep finding stuff from junior high. Even found my old Jyousei tie...and...oh. Oh wow, I found my scrapbook. Should be fun to look through later. Or when I wake up in the morning at any rate.

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 01:49:13 GMT

I really need a second job...

...What you said about getting back the old Kajimoto. Did you mean it?

Private
He gave me three hours to get my stuff and kicked me out. He's not going to help with tuition anymore. And maybe it's wrong to keep this all bottled inside but right now, I just want to deal with it alone. It'll come spilling out one day, I know, but I just can't take people right now. People meaning everyone and anyone.

...Although I probably did deserve the couple slaps I got. Doesn't mean they hurt any less...damn it all.
Private

Today's quote: "Did you ever, when you were little, endure your parents' warnings, then wait for them to leave the room, pry loose protective covers and consider inserting some metal object into an electrical outlet? Did you wonder if for once you might light up the room?" - Ellen Hopkins, Burned.

[ooc: Something I noticed recently (i.e. um, a second ago) ._. Sometimes it's easy to figure out how Kaji really feels by the lyrics of the song he's listening to. Not always, though XD]

I stopped counting my entries a while back.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 20:30:42 GMT

Going home this weekend to see my parents.

Youhei, I'm leaving my car with you. Kawamura, schedule some time with the kittens for me before Friday night?

And I need to redo part of my self-analysis but it's a relatively...well, no, it affects the whole paper. Either way, it's easy enough to fix. Now...I need volunteers. I have to do a pair analysis, would anyone like to volunteer him/herself and his/her significant other/best friend? And I have a group analysis, at least eight people, preferably all friends. Any takers? All I need is a short interview from each person and I promise it's nothing bad.

Private
I'm not good with words, never was. So...

...Nothing to say. Yet. I'll just work, stare at my lamp and think for a bit.
Private

Today's quote: "Outing is a nasty word for telling the truth." - Armistead Maupin.

.. And this song is so weird...

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 01:17:53 GMT

This weekend.

I'm going home and coming out to my dad this weekend. I mean, my mother knows about Taki already and my father's willing to talk to me. He's finally cooled off after our last argument. And here I am about to make him angry again...but better now than the next time he tries to arrange a wife for me.

There might be consequences but I'm not going to think about those. That would just put me in a dark place...literally and figuratively...

I won't take the car, just in case, or my laptop. I'll have to hide my phone, if the worst happens, so I can make calls. I don't want to burden the twins, I really don't want to burden Wakato.

...And I will not tell Taki. If I do end up getting locked in that...basement, my father says...cell. If I get locked in that cell, I don't want Taki to know. I should tell him, by all rights. But this is something I won't tell anyone. The only people who know are my old teammates and with luck, that's how it's going to stay.

The lamp is bright now, not dim like before. I should thank Wakato for the lightbulb again.

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 23:45:07 GMT

...Why am I front of the computer. I'm going to get going to Kawamura's soon. Somehow.

Um.

Someone drag me out of my dorm, please, I seem to be incapable of making myself move.

Edit: Never mind. Dragged myself out. Editting from my phone.

Meme time.

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 02:55:24 GMT

.......Tired. Which way is up again? *joking*

The musical went well. Everyone was great. And now I'm lying in bed with my laptop. I have free time on my hands for a while as well, which makes me happy.

And I saw this floating around. Figured I might as well do it.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

It's happened. We had a mutual break-up ~~and I buried myself in work~~. ~~I guess that stuck.~~

2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?

That's not a problem right now. But I'm dense, I guess, I never notice other people's feelings.

3. If you could hang out with someone famous for a day, who would it be??

I don't play tennis anymore but...Rafael Nadal.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

Yes. I'm sure the wall shouldn't be quite so close...regarding the future, no. I'll take things as they come.

5. What's your ideal lover like?

Mmmm, two words: Taki Haginosuke.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?

If you don't have both, you're more likely cursed than blessed.

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?

...It's happened. I moved on eventually.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

I'd get over it. There are more fish in the sea.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?

...No. Well...........*sigh* Yes.

10. What do you want most in life?

I want...to be happy with who I am.

11.Do you think mankind is inherently evil?

I doubt that. Mankind may make bad decisions and some people may be selfish but it's rooted in their mind. We all have the potential to be evil but very rarely does that potential develop into something more.

12.Put your iPod/media player/whatever on shuffle. List the first five songs that come up.

Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen
Resonant Blue - Morning Musume
Mirror - Gackt
Te Busque - Nelly Furtado (feat. Juanes)
Madame Butterfly - Puccini

13.Who are currently the most important to you?

There are a few.

14. Who did you dream of last night?

I had a dream about cake. I think.

15.Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

I don't see marriage in the near future...or being rich. I want to be happily attached with enough money to live on.

16.If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react?

They would never know because I wouldn't do anything.

17.Would you give your all in a relationship?

There are some things people can never give.

18.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?

At the hope of avoiding word-vomit of the anthropological sort, I'm passing on this question. I'm glad as I am.

19.What type of friends do you like?

I like friends I get along with. Like the ones I have now, no matter how few they may be.

20.If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?

I don't play pranks.

A. List 7 facts/quirks/habits of yours.

1. When I was a child, I built up an emotional wall without noticing. I only realized recently...but I don't think it'll ever go away.
2. I hate being alone in dark rooms.
3. Working a lot is my way of saying that I don't want to deal with my problems.
4. People assume that I'm nice, even if I'm not.
5. I really like Ouran High School Host Club. I read Kyouya/Tamaki fanfiction too.
6. If people insist on using my first name, I tell them to call me Hisa, not Taka and not Takahisa.
7. My mother was the first to come up with Hisahime and she called me that until my father got angry. ~~She also made me wear dresses sometimes.~~

Now that I'm free. Hello to my suitemates. I know Kenya (and Whiz) already...so hello to Tachibana-kun and Kachirou-kun. Maybe everyone at Kita will actually see me and I don't mean running out of the dorms.

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 21:04:30 GMT

~~.........Ahahahahaha, oh shit.~~

I've been on the go so much for the past few days that I forgot when the production was supposed to be. It's tomorrow. Dress rehearsals are today.

...I'm fine. I am.

It's not a big deal, anyway, it's just a production.

Things to Do
1) Call mother.
2) Call father.
3) Make time to visit parents.

And I've been neglecting my quotes~

Today's quote: " "I feel so guilty." "About what?" "About everything." "Relax. Not everything is your fault." "I can't accept that." " - John Updike, Rabbit, Run

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 00:38:00 GMT

Well....I got my final assignments for Anthro. I have to do three reports: personal (an analysis of myself), a pair (two people) and a group (between 8 and 15 people). I just have to pick my pair and my group but that can wait. I might as well finish my personal analysis first of all.

I'm getting used to rehearsals now, so they're not as annoying as they were at first. Still can't say I enjoy starting my day with the tech crew almost running everyone over by accident.

And as for work, I hate taking stock and unpacking new stock. I like the tagging gun though. Except for the bit where someone stuck a 'SPECIAL' sticker on my shirt and kept going "free hot uni student with every purchase". Just because they haven't made anything of their lives...

That's about it, I think.

Hmm...

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 02:49:28 GMT

The first thing any of my co-workers said to me when I walked into the store tonight was, "You had FOOD, didn't you?" It was like having someone point at you in the middle of a crowded room to yell, "You got laid!" Because there were customers staring at us, probably wondering if we were lunatics. ~~Though it's amusing to sell them alcohol and condoms after that.~~

...But yes, I did have food. And it was good food.

Saturday rehearsals make some of us very hungry. None of us can cook. So three of us (me and two guys on the tech crew) pitched in and went for teppanyaki. It left our wallets a lot lighter than we would have liked but it was worth it. We split the food in order to spend less. Udon with seafood and hot sauce. Chicken and steak. And cucumber maki. We got complimentary cupcakes because tomorrow's Easter.

I'm not Christian but my mom sent a huge chocolate egg for me for Easter. ~~She's got too much time on her hands.~~ I can't eat it, it's just too huge.

And to the suitemates: I don't intend on leaving the suite at all tomorrow without good reason. I will be stationed on the couch with my mp3 player and my sociology paper. Attempts to move me will be ignored.

~~...Odd person out. The place was full of couples, including the guys I went with. I left early.~~

Sixteen

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 18:24:02 GMT

My back hurts.

My minor kills.

...Can I take a break and just sleep? And would whoever's blasting Caramelldansen please shut it OFF already?

Fifteen

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 02:45:54 GMT

Sense is easiest found when someone who knows you too well smacks you a couple times and calls you an idiot...then goes back home after driving from another prefecture.

Work...is surprisingly slow tonight. We usually have the most interesting people in here on Friday nights. It's so slow right now that my co-worker let me borrow his laptop to make this post.

Anyway, morning rehearsal has been cut back a bit, so it starts at 6:30am instad of 6. Extra hour of sleep for me.

I think that's really about it.

Private
...I can't believe she drove all the way here just to slap me.

I know I'm an idiot. I guess I appreciate that she bothered.
Private

Today's quote: "The pendulum of the mind oscillates between sense and nonsense, not between right and wrong." - Carl Gustav Jung.

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 21:07:38 GMT

Schedule (Until the Musical)
4:15am - Up, something light to eat
5am - Warm-up, laps around the dorms
6am-8am - Rehearsal
8:30am - Breakfast, shower, etc.
9am-12:30pm - Classes [10am on Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday]
12:45pm-1pm - Lunch
1:30pm-4pm - Classes
4:15pm-5:25pm - Rehearsal
5:30pm-6:30pm - Private Time
6:45pm - Dinner
7:30pm-9pm - Work on assignments
9pm-11pm - Work [Try for an earlier shift]
11:30 - Go to sleep.

Private
This is going to be like senior year in high school all over again. Too much to do. By rights, I can take time off work but my dad's threatening to send less money for me already. Between keeping the car in one piece and getting food, I can't really spare for tuition. Things have a way of working out, though...right?

The private hour to myself gives me a little time to blow off steam. Which is good...

This is private, why am I avoiding the subject...I think I'm majorly fucking up with Taki. Already. I told him I was fine, just stressed. And I am...or I've at least convinced my Psych professor of that. And I know there's something Taki wants to say. I know there is. But I don't think he's going to say it. What the hell is wrong with me? I probably came off as angry, maybe? I've messed up too many relationships...maybe it's time to write my ex for advice. She knows me better than my parents do.

Too much thinking. I'm an idiot.
Private

As you might guess, I'll be pretty scarce until we get the musical over with. Mealtimes and rehearsals will be the best time to catch me if you need to...and if you're a friend, I'll let you encroach on my private time. Maybe.

Today's quote: "A day's work is a day's work, neither more nor less, and the man who does it needs a day's sustenance, a night's repose, and due leisure, whether he be painter or ploughman." - George Bernard Shaw, An Unsocial Socialist.

Thirteen

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 20:35:37 GMT

My theatre professor has finally gone off the deep end. She kept switching what play she wants us to do as a proper performance and everyone was beginning to get fed up. So when she announced on Wednesday that she'd finally made up her mind, we were all pretty happy. And then she told us what we're performing. Once Upon A Mattress. We're doing a musical comedy version of the Princess and the Pea. And no, I am not the princess...I'm the prince.

We have one month to learn and perfect the songs and dances. Only two people in my theatre class are actually doing music or dance. We're not even doing the original version of it, either. We're all going to wear 'street clothes' (my professor made a point of giving us all these strange looks, she hates casual clothing). Just in case anyone was worried about coming to see it and then having me make their eardrums bleed, my voice isn't that bad.

If anyone around Kita hears someone running past really early in the morning (I mean, 4am early), that would be me warming up for morning rehearsal by running laps up and down the halls. We started learning the opening dance and we have to hold one pose for about two minutes. The professor made one guy stay like that all rehearsal because he sneezed. She's scary when determined.

Anyway...

I'm going to do some work now, then head to the store for my shift...this was a really long entry...

Today's quote: " "Contrariwise," continued Tweedledee, "if it was so, it might be; and if it were so, it would be: but as it isn't, it ain't. That's logic." " - Lewis Carroll, Alice Through the Looking-Glass.

[ooc: Kaji's quotes are going to come from Once Upon A Mattress for a while. My friend is giving me a copy of her script XD ...Kaji will fit the prince perfectly. ~~Stupid but rather sweet.~~]

Twelve

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 21:05:51 GMT

Some days drag along endlessly, don't they...? Like today.

Kawamura, I'm sorry about sort of snapping at you. I was just in a really bad mood. ~~I didn't mean it. I don't know what got into me. And it's okay if you don't forgive me, just letting you know I meant no ill will.~~

Private
My psych professor held me back after class today. He said that I have a lot of bottled-up rage. I think I tried to laugh at him but I got so angry when he said that, I'm not sure if I really did try. I'm wondering if he's right...but I don't want to think. Working more shifts is out of the question, my boss said he's worried about my stress levels. Going home for the weekend is also not an option because my father will be there and I don't want to get into a yelling match. But then there's the question...bottled-up rage can translate into road rage, right? So driving is definitely a bad idea.

Maybe I should just sleep my stress off...
Private

...Oi, Kenya, if you're in the suite around 7-ish this evening and I'm sleeping, just give me a whack on the head with the nearest book. I have to get up for work.

EDIT: Never mind. I can't sleep.

EDIT 2 [ooc: pretending it's about fifteen minutes later than the last edit rather than two or three]: Taki, can we meet up sometime within the next week for lunch?

[ooc: Strikes are private to Taka-san ^_^]

Eleven

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 20:04:18 GMT

If I hear one more reference to the Princess Princess anime or manga today...I don't know. I just don't want to hear it. The guys in Theatre have picked up the nickname the girls gave me. And my professor found my lisp 'endearing' somehow. Personally, I'm annoyed that everytime I try to make the 's' sound, 'th' comes out instead. I can't even say lisp.

My parents called too. I don't think I've ever heard my mother laugh so much. My father was less than amused, of course, because 'I'm a Kajimoto and men in the Kajimoto family don't do stupid things like bite holes in their tongues'. Interesting, because I did...though I shouldn't have said that to him. ~~Does that mean I'm not a man in the Kajimoto family? Am I a princess? I'm irritable, I hate soft foods.~~ I admit, there is usually a psychological block that stops people from drawing blood no matter how hard they bite...my psychology professor say that I must lack that block. He keeps giving me these odd looks in class...

Okay. Today's quote is...
"I hate that aesthetic game of the eye and the mind, played by these connoisseurs, these mandarins who "appreciate" beauty. What is beauty anyway? There's no such thing. I never "appreciate," any more than I "like." I love or hate." -Pablo Picasso.

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 00:49:14 GMT

Meet the idiot with three stitches on his tongue. According to the doctor, I almost bit straight through. Anyway, I now have a really bad lisp and I've been restricted to soft foods only. It could have been worse...though it's really awkward having your tongue sewn up. If anyone talks to me and laughs at me when I reply, they can consider themselves on my bad side. It's not nice to make fun of people's speech habits, whether they're naturally there or caused by wounds.

My theatre professor is going to kill me tomorrow. She wanted us to do a session loosely plotted around A Midsummer Night's Dream and she wanted me to try the part of Puck. ...So much for that. Oh and I missed her class on Thursday too. Maybe I can give her my deformed chocolate sculpture. I'm sorry, maybe I can give her Lump with Straws for Limbs (sorry if it's been bugging you that it's sitting in the fridge, Kenya, I just have nothing to do with it).

Taki - I hope you enjoyed your beauty sleep. I was going to wake you when I got back from the doctor but I couldn't bear to, so I just went to bed. Sorry I was still asleep when you left.

Kawamura - Can I come by to see the kittens sometime this week? I miss having them around, especially Seiun.

Nine

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 19:56:19 GMT

I don't think I've had such a good Valentine's since I was...17.

I got too much chocolate - same old, same old - but there are only two boxes I want because they're the only ones from special people. The others are up for grabs.

I hope everyone else had a great day yesterday. :)

Eight...and Meme

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 21:44:34 GMT

...I'm sorry...what now?

...No thank you...

World peace is ultimately not an ideal. Inner peace is satisfaction with oneself and being happy with who you are, no matter if everyone loves you or hates you. This is a personal ideal, which will not impact the wider society (wider society referring, in this case, to the entire world population), at least not immediately. The chage would be gradual, moreso than if everyone suddenly decided that they were happy as they were. World peace means perfection: socially, mentally, physically, emotionally. Humanity strives for perfection, even if only subconsciously. As a matter of fact, humanity exists to strive for perfection. Reaching that plateau would not be beneficial. Perfection would eradicate the need for existence, with nothing for people to strive for. Perfection also cannot physically exist. An example for such a theory would be a circle. Circles are perfect. However, the perfect circle has never been drawn and therefore there is no such thing as a circle. If there is no such thing as a circle, it cannot be perfect. Therefore there is no such thing as a perfect circle and, in turn, no such thing as perfection. The only circle that can possibly be in existence is circular logic, which is showcased openly here.

Today's quote: "Finality is death. Perfection is finality. Nothing is perfect. It has lumps in it." - James Stephens, The Crock of Gold.

Edit: Well, Kamio-kun, I almost went overboard and added a lot more to my notes, which would be unnecessary. But thank you for the pointer.

[ooc: Since I don't think Kajimoto's birthday is ever mentioned in canon, I made one up ._. If anyone knows it, please, do inform me...I also made up his favorite color. ._.]

[ooc: Edit: I was months off. His birthday is December 22, though I'm leaving it as is for the sake of the meme >>; *idiot* ~~If I had finished my calendar, I would know this.~~ Thanks Jasmine ._.]

Seven

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 01:39:12 GMT

Inside out, upside down, turn around. I got my papers done and turned in...just in time to realize we're about to start stereotyping in anthro. I'm both dreading it and looking forward to it.

Something else I'm dreading...is this Thursday. Valentine's. Maybe this year, it won't be too bad. After all, I'm not dating anyone this year so I don't have to feel horrible about rejecting their gifts. Still, I don't know...

I think I'm going to skip classes on Thursday...

So I'm sure a lot of people have plans for Valentine's. Have fun.

I found an interesting quote today: "To err is human...to blame someone else is to show good management skills."

I'm going to go quote-hunting now and give my brain time to relax after all my work this week.

~~Someone needs to walk on my back again. Any volunteers?~~

[ooc: Strikes visible, just struck out.]

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 22:10:55 GMT

Two ten-page papers for anthro and a twenty-page report for soc. I'm working split shifts at the store. If no one hears much from me, my papers and work ate me. Sorry in advance.

Private
For some reason, my mood is straining. It's all the work I have to do, I think. On top of my assignments, I can't believe that I accepted split shifts at the store all next week too. It's probably just stress that's making me feel so rotten. Whatever...

I'm not turning into my father. I'm not.
Private

[ooc: Last post before hiatus. I might be out in the morning and I'll be working in the night, so ><;;; tomorrow afternoon is your last chance to catch me. Or tonight.]

Here we go...

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 20:11:10 GMT

Since this is flying about the place and I have to sit around for a bit while my theatre class gets ready for dress rehearsal...here.

Anonymous meme! Post whatever you like anonymously.

Topics can include:
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Five

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 22:30:23 GMT

I'm back and I'm tired and I'm hungry.

Marui, if you still want to practice lines, I recommend bringing four cups of coffee for me instead of two. Then you can make all the U-turns you want, I honestly don't care.

Kawamura, sorry if I'm a bit irritable. I just haven't slept since I left, except when I dozed off once in a gas station.

Taki, I hope you got my message. And I got back safe and sound.

Kouhei, you can have your turn to walk on my back now.

Private
Bastard bastard bastard bastard. I don't know why I bothered to mess up my back to go get him. Every time I stopped the car at a station, even once in the middle of traffic, he tried to jump out and hitch a ride back to Saitama. This was both before and after I told him mom was worried. And then he had the nerve to tell me that I'm wasting my time studying anthro and theatre. He can think whatever he bloody wants to because I can make my own decisions now. Dropped him home and now I'm back. So that's okay. I need to stop letting him get to me like this. I'll be thinking more clearly when I wake up tomorrow...I hope.
Private

I'm going to eat and we'll see how it goes from there. If I do fall asleep...calling me is a good way to wake me up, even if I'm not really coherent.

And randomly, I listen to a lot of types of music, but Placebo is really good. I didn't even know I had music by them on my mp3 until today...

Your Tenipuri Wedding
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
The Groom	Hajime Mizuki, Fuji Yuuta
Where You Got Married	On The Run From Deranged Fangirls
What You Wore	Catwoman Outfit
What He Wore	Spiderman Outfit
Who Opposed The Union	Akutagawa Jiroh
Who He is Having An Affair With	Yagyuu Hiroshi

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